Stained Glass

memories come flooding back . . .
a squall blowing in
across the water,
berries in the hay,
sunsets through a plate glass window

I remember stories
around the kitchen table . . .
kids playing Chinese checkers,
eating popcorn
and laughing at silly things

beside the fire
and fluorescent stones
we chanted hymns
studied myths
and pleaded for our souls

the world was our adventure
the lightness and the dark . . .
castles by the seashore
cast their shadows down the streets
we found to wander

those bygone trails
beyond the garden
finally brought me here to stand
outside your door
tonight

in moonlit poems
these runes unfold
a menagerie of whispers . . . 
into your ears a song
this mockingbird is singing

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Meditation

ommmmmmmmmmmmm…

chanting to the echoes
of dewdrops in a teacup
lips invoke
the ancient songs
of life

where petals fall
into the pond—
a blossom
opens up and shares
its secrets

between what is
and the great beyond
an ocean
in a seashell
pounds the shore

one moment and no more
to spend inside eternity
to leave behind
what’s never been
and seek what’s meant to be

…shanti

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fussbudgetting
in the basement . . .
even your candor
won’t clean up
this mess


you’re remembered in dreams
and remembered in prayers
I also see you
in a whiff of coffee and
the scent of new-fallen snow


when I close my eyes
you’re standing there
naked
with a pear
in your hands


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desert rose
standing by the road
thumb in the air
with headlights on the horizon
you still the rising moon

Skylark — Issue 12

the obelisk stands
in sharp contrast
to the many weary pilgrims
gathered in its shadow
waiting on their knees

Ribbons, Fall 2018

one oar creaks
as it gently dips
into the lake…
I’m rowing
in circles


Ribbons, Spring/Summer 2019

I listen for the sound
of butterfly wings
of blossoms
and sunshine
and laughter


new growth
in the old forest . . .
the many ways
we’ve discovered
to hold hands


Ribbons, Winter 2019

my memory of you
keeps fading away . . .
I’m searching
for a glass of water
poured into the sea

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the postage stamp
is canceled
the envelope unopened

inside the perfumed letter
words that can’t get out

news she cannot bear


morning birdsong

delicate crystal chirps
ease me awake

I roll over,
wrap an arm around your waist
and listen to you snore

the cherita, taste of rain – August 2018

the generations
we grew up with
are almost gone

but lessons we’ve sown
have already grown

into endless fields of children


morning thunder

stillness may be shattered
and sunrise boldly stolen

but lying here with you
we can watch the falling raindrops
paint the windowpane


around the old stone hearth
we gathered

reciting incantations

smoky whispers
up the chimney
mingled with the evening rain


on that starry August night
I imagined us
lasting forever

but we were just there
holding hands for a moment

meteors piercing sky

the cherita, the stories – October 2018

we lost our ball
in a field of stories
where grandpa mowed the hay

looking there, picking berries
poking through the grass

now shadows looking back


first evening star

falling into space
I watch

as an unbroken moment
of eternity breaks
with the subtle blink of an eye


the cherita, snow ghosts – November 2018

wind whispers to a boy
in the branches
oh so very high

not a care
for where he’s going

but wishing he could fly


I’ve found a key

an old key
to your heart

I remember the feel
of this key and the way
we clicked when I turned it


never mind the thorns.

a bucket of berries
makes a pie,” she said.

scratches just skin deep
grandmother’s insight
mighty sweet


storyteller’s tale
is passed around the casket

the ending’s just been reached

so now it’s time to take a hand
and presume to know
what he would surely say


the cherita, in my palm – December 2018

do you remember me?

what was the measure
of that thing that we had?

can you remember
the night we fell for love
and you shared with me the moon?


the cherita, the sound of water – February 2019

evening rain
it’s quiet here
beside the fire

let me tell you the story
of how we’re going to fall

in love


scars

it doesn’t matter
where they come from
life comes complete with scars

and now that we have all these scars
we know we have dared to dream


a hint of jasmine
from
the warm bath

I watch from the open door
as she stirs the water

with her toes


as I set down this load
the burdens of my soul

by the side of the road
I can see the lightning
on the horizon

rain reflected in your eyes


an open door
is all that stands
between life and imagination

I step inside
and stop caring

if all I see is real


the cherita, leaves blown – March 2019

falling star

you broken-hearted
flicker in the sky

searching for your lover
you’ve wandered through the darkness
to be with me tonight


writing whatever comes to mind
unwinding all the twine
then tying it in knots

to have that freedom
dearly bought

I fought and fought and fought


a new year is coming

the old one was a ball
followed by a train wreck

I was picking through the debris
and found a goodbye letter
tucked inside my shoe


the cherita, a warm night – April 2019

kill me with a whisper

settle these bones with raindrops
beneath a stack of stones

then court my soul
in the great beyond
where together lasts forever


her garden trowel
has turned no earth
for many decades now

As I hold it in my hand
I can almost feel her hand

holding mine


the cherita, a morning light – May 2019

the stars come out

an old man counts them
slowly

calling them by name
as if each one
were his child

Sonic Boom, Issue 12

cold spring rain

the gray fashions
a cloak around me

I sit here
fumbling with the keys
to my imagination

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The Last Exit

It begins somewhere in the nebulous inklings of REM sleep, at just about midnight, as we’re speeding down a quiet wooded road. Sara has the wheel in a stranglehold. We’re in the midst of a major tiff.

From out of the darkness, a pair of glowering-white eyes suddenly appears in the headlights. Instead of hitting the brakes, Sara flips the overdrive switch. The car leaves the ground with a whoosh and is quickly transformed into a flying carpet in the shape of a raven. Gravity pulls at the pit of my stomach. Sara is nowhere to be seen.

My temper slowly settles to a simmer as the raven-carpet soars higher and higher into the moonless, starlit night. Soon the earth vanishes, and the rug pulls over next to a narrow set of stairs stretching upward in the direction of the constellation Orion. Three hula dancers step forward to greet me with leis in their outstretched hands. They lead the way, swaying hypnotically in the starlight, strewing petals along the steps. Together we climb into an endless realm of sky as my thoughts reach out for Sara.

oh, that I had never left
such echoes in your ears . . .
butterflies
morph into wolves
feasting on my words

Saint Peter stands at the top of the stairs next to Sara and an archangel wielding a trumpet. Suddenly, the horn sounds and the stairs fall away.

Falling is far from flying. There’s no bottom to space. Stars whiz by as a cold sweat pours out onto the sheets. The dream ends with a lurch, and I wake up feeling unworthy.

Haibun Today Volume 12, Number 4, December 2018
http://haibuntoday.com/ht124/TP_Grahn_TheLast.html

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Moving On

Moving is no fun, but after living in a nursing home for over two years I find it to be an adventure. My stuff, those things that have been languishing in storage all this time, is finally in my possession again. I am rediscovering myself one box at a time. Each box is filled with memories that make looking back both painful and liberating. This vial of Herkimer diamonds, for example, a gift from my favorite rock hound, Grandpa . . . old birthday cards from people who no longer remember my birthday . . . pictures of my last girlfriend . . . aha, my favorite slippers!

Freedom is exhilarating. Not that being cooped-up kept me from expressing myself or expanding my horizons. Heck, during my stay at the nursing home I wrote over 500 poems, made friends outside the home and explored the microcosm of a world around me with staunch enthusiasm. Still, I thank God I’m on my own again.

summer symphony . . .
oh how the meadow
explodes with song

Reborn, my world is full of new and second chances. Now, each memory, each opportunity, each dream is a reason to grow. Every time I look in the mirror, I see a new man, a new creation.

lightning strikes
as the earth keeps spinning
he climbs the mountain

Haibun Today 12 | 4

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The Other Side of Midnight

March 13, 2018 – My energy normally fluctuates. This piece was written over a period encompassing numerous cycles of said fluctuation.

I’m sitting here typing—trying to write a haibun. The problem is that the medication is getting in the way of my brainwaves. When I’m in my manic state, thoughts flow over the dam in a steady stream. In my supposedly-appropriately-medicated state, the proverbial spillway seems to run a bit dry.

blackened fog
hides the moonlit sky . . .
moths gather in the shadows

Bi-polar disorder is fun, well, that’s until I start thinking I can run the world. Then things start to get a bit complicated. It’s hard to describe when these fingers don’t even have the energy to manipulate the keys. The clock on the wall is ticking. Dust is gathering on the bookshelves and the rays of sunlight have vanished into the solemn hour of midnight.

awake in a dream—
reality bites
my dog

What I know about mental illness is that stability comes with a price tag. To have lived a life benefiting from the adrenaline rush of mania seems at first to be a blessing. But then there’s the curse of grandiose thinking and risky behavior not to mention depression looming on the other end of the bridge.

Here, in the middle of that lonely bridge, there stands a fairy with a medicine box clutched in her outstretched hand. Here, there is no turning back. Here, there is no empathy, no emotion played away on the black and white keys of a grand piano. Here I’m just another cardboard silhouette casually propped up in a department store window. Here, there is no shore. Time traces fingerprints on the window. The window opens and I step out onto the crowded street.

got a problem?
take a pill . . .
follow the winding stream

I take a careful step or two, stagger and then stand still. I pause for another breath and then lean into the wind. I’m not sure where I’m headed but I think I see a light ahead. This dream may really be for nothing but nothing’s ever felt so real.

somewhere buried
deep inside—
a clock-spring marking time

Originally Published: Scryptic Magazine, Issue 1.4

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Breakthrough

I see a light through the keyhole while fumbling with the keys to my imagination. The faint sliver penetrates the darkness just enough that I can tell it’s there. I try the first key. It doesn’t fit. I try the next and the next. Each is another mismatch. Finally, the last one slips into place. The lock clicks as the key twists. I turn the knob. The door swings wide and daylight spills in.

spring morning
I follow a bee
to the honey

First Published: ColoradoBoulevard.net Poet’s Salon
https://www.coloradoboulevard.net/poets-salon-opening-doors/

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Deluge

On the therapist’s couch, I wonder aloud what it would be like to bundle all the pain I’ve ever experienced together with any future pains, to feel them all at once and be done with it. I mean everything, from the hangnails, slivers, cuts, and bruises, to the pain of lost relationships and death. I think how overwhelming it would be, how completely unbearable. Still, if getting it all over in one great rush was possible, would it be worth it or would it kill me?

a river overflows
its banks . . .
silence

First published: Narrow Road Literary Journal, April 2019
Page 39

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Vanity

I splash my face
and fumble for a towel…
sleepy shadow

Staring into the mirror, I revisit my present self. Whiskers have returned. Wrinkles all seem in place. Hair still disappearing, a pondering man looks back at me. I grin shyly, recognizing him as the reflection I met in yesterday’s mirror. A calm overcomes me as I leave the old man to reflect, hoping he’ll be there tomorrow.

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